has it only been yesterday
when all those filthy emotions
gathered around me those
voices screaming in my head
it is hard to explain the things
why i think of them and the
reason why they appear in the
first place but it kept me up
dreams are mysterious and
yet fascinating and the rules
of reality do not apply from
nightmares and sweet dreams
i wonder if the things i dream
are trying to talk to me and
give me hopes and hint as
i go through this turmoil in life
it's funny how we're always
looking for a meaning in
everything but we have not
even understood ourselves
many times i am unable to
distinguish the dream world
from reality and many times
things feel like a deja vu
dreams seem much more
powerful then the reality
and most of the time a
little too good to be true
last night i dreamt of love
but the things was it is
non-existent and the truth
of it and waking up hurts
possibly i was contented
with the love i received
(which seems impossible)
quite sure i'm not loved
questioning your life is
simply questioning your
existence your meaning
and your purpose here
and right now for me it is
blanks and void answers
and question marks in
those questions of my life
(this post has no meaning to it i just wanted to write my thoughts of my dreams out today and last night, i've dreamt of the people that i long for right now, quite demanding and quite impossible. i'm not sure what i have
to be proud of in my life and definitely it is still full of unanswered questions, but one day, we'll figure it all out, won't we?)