dreams

has it only been yesterday
when all those filthy emotions
gathered around me those
voices screaming in my head  

                                                    it is hard to explain the things
                                                    why i think of them and the
                                                    reason why they appear in the
                                                    first place but it kept me up

dreams are mysterious and
yet fascinating and the rules
of reality do not apply from
nightmares and sweet dreams

                                                    i wonder if the things i dream
                                                    are trying to talk to me and
                                                    give me hopes and hint as
                                                    i go through this turmoil in life

it's funny how we're always
looking for a meaning in
everything but we have not
even understood ourselves

                                                    many times i am unable to
                                                    distinguish the dream world
                                                    from reality and many times
                                                    things feel like a deja vu

dreams seem much more
powerful then the reality
and most of the time a
little too good to be true

                                                    last night i dreamt of love
                                                    but the things was it is
                                                    non-existent and the truth
                                                    of it and waking up hurts

possibly i was contented
with the love i received
(which seems impossible)
quite sure i'm not loved

                                                    questioning your life is
                                                    simply questioning your
                                                    existence your meaning
                                                    and your purpose here

and right now for me it is
blanks and void answers
and question marks in
those questions of my life









(this post has no meaning to it i just wanted to write my thoughts of my dreams out today and last night, i've dreamt of the people that i long for right now, quite demanding and quite impossible. i'm not sure what i have
to be proud of in my life and definitely it is still full of unanswered questions, but one day, we'll figure it all out, won't we?)