not quite strangers

do you know

the kind of feeling

the kind of emotion

when you see someone

and you recognise

their face

their hair

but they're no friends

they're just someone

you've seen at school

or maybe at a certain place

every single time

but you never talked

and the thing is

you know that he knows

of your existence

and somehow his

facial expression

shows that he does know

who you are but

yet you're still strangers

and every single time

it makes me recall

every memory i have

of that person

and all the chances

i had to go up forward

to that person and

start the conversation

all that's left to say is

"damn

i really wished

i knew that person"

and i wonder if he

ever does feel that way

about me too

he is adorable and

sits in front of me

everyday in school

no doubt

during morning assembly

he looks at me

i look back

there is this weird connection

which is not quite

explainable because

i know someone

but we're not friends

and i am just dying

to know him but

it's hard to be the

first person to speak up

because if i can't

like myself

it is simply audacious

of me to think that

maybe someone

might be interested

in knowing me better

i've known many people

who aren't my friends

but no maybe has

ever captured your attention

as much as others did

and it's so hard to

go on with life thinking

how different it

might have be if

i had known

that person and he

played an important

role in my life

and what if he was

the one who was able

to maybe me smile

and that this sadness

might not have ever

existed and maybe

he was the reason

why i never cried myself

or hated myself

and what if because of him

i never fell in love

with (writing) poetry

and this string of words

never existed and

nothing that i have

ever written existed

and no one knew me

and i never met

all these wonderful

people by chance?

what if

what if

what if

maybe i really am

over thinking

maybe i am just

really tired and i

really do need

to get some sleep

or maybe he really

wished that me

knew me too